Saturday, August 1, 2015

Always be thankful

The view outside my room

It felt like home when in Brisbane.
Even after today, whenever I mention about the place, I'd imagine myself there again. That's how much I miss that place. I've never felt more comfortable living my life than when I was in Brisbane. I had everything under control, manageable and I was able to go through my day as planned; morning workout, preparing lunch, hangout with friends and sometimes workout again. Sigh. I miss my daily routine there. I know this sounds unfair because when I was in Brisbane I was wishing for the opposite; I want Malaysia, halal food, family and my closet! It reflects so much about how Allah described (in the Qur'an) about us humankind. We tend to look at things that we don't have and less grateful for what is in front of us. We search for what our hearts desire or simply, we just want what we want.

I know I need to learn to be grateful for what I have.
But it's undeniably true that to allow your heart (I repeat, the heart not the mouth) to say alhamdulillah is not easy. It needs more practice. It needs more sincerity in the heart.

So many things have changed since I came back for good. My daily routines and diets have changed. I've been indulging myself in unhealthy food for months and have been putting a lot of weight since. I'd be lying if I say I don't feel stressed at all. However, I'm still thankful that I wasn't the size that I was before. Alhamdulillah. I don't want to be where I was again. I'm thankful that I have this awareness earlier than I did before. Again, alhamdulillah.

Maybe bad times aren't bad at all. If we look at the positive side, it could help us to feel better. It's the clear thoughts that can help us to think wisely and less emotional. Once our mind is clear, we can help to get ourselves back on track. Insha'Allah.

Good night.

On life and future

Hello, there.

I went flowers-hunting with my family a couple of days ago and I bought a few of my favourites! As you can see from my previous posts, I love flowers so much and every week (or two) I'd buy a fresh bouquet for my room. Unfortunately, the prices of fresh flowers are expensive in Malaysia than in Australia which make it harder for me to continue this weekly routine here. But fret not, because this is where the artificial ones come to the rescue! Haha.

So what I bought was some roses, tulips and lilies from Kaison.
I'm glad it helps to bring more colours to my room!
The room feels more friendlier now.

A good news for me is I'll be starting my life as a student again soon! Insha'Allah.
With Allah's permission, I've been offered a place to continue my studies in the Universiti Malaysia Sabah. The program that was offered to me was Master in Counselling Psychology. Alhamdulillah. Somehow I think it's a good opportunity for me to gain new experiences too. Hopefully everything will run as smoothly as possible. Insha'Allah.

I wasn't expecting this offer and wasn't even looking forward to continue my studies (although I did mention that I wanted to pursue my studies in the UK). I changed my mind a few months ago and decided to find some jobs or start my own business to help me build a stable life. Unfortunately, I didn't receive any feedbacks from the places that I've been applying for jobs except a few. Then came this offer, I decided maybe I should give it a try. Insha'Allah Allah knows what's best for me. May Allah ease everything.

Another offer that I've received a few months earlier before this recent offer came to the mail was from one of the universities in Notthingham, UK. I was so excited and thrilled to receive the offer. The university offers me to do Master of Science in Psychology. However, I didn't accept the offer due to several reasons. Of course, I feel sad because it was one of my dreams but I had to give it up. Again, I believe that God knows best.

To be honest, I find it much better to study in Malaysia for now. With what is happening to the economy in Malaysia, at least furthering my studies here would help me save up some pennies.

Please make du'a for me.
Jazakumullah khayr.