Friday, November 21, 2014


Hello there. 
How are you?

Time travels so fast, isn't it? I can't believe that it's Friday and it's almost time to call the day off. Alhamdulillah. It's good to know that weekend is approaching. Anyway, I just came home from the Friday Night Class. I'm so grateful for the topic presented tonight. Just exactly what this post is about, istiqamah. In English, istiqamah can be translated as steadfastness. I'm sure each and one of us is struggling to become steadfast in this deen. So do I. In this post, I would like to share some of the things I've learned from the class. I hope we all can benefit from it. May Allah increase us in faith. Insha'Allah. 

Istiqamah. Hmm.
Not everyone understands the concept of istiqamah. We've heard the word many times yet we just don't get what it really means. That was what happened to me before. Steadfastness is all about remaining firm on the straight path within the bounds that Allah has laid down. Part of it is to fulfil the obligations of Allah and refrain from what He has prohibited. It requires a lot of hard work (ibadah) to obtain istiqamah. It also requires patience, hard work, endurance and perseverance. There are two qualities for our ibadah to be accepted, sincerity and mutaba'ah. The latter means doing all sorts of ibadah according to the way of Rasulullah SAW. The key to istiqamah is the soundness of the heart. In a hadith, Rasulullah says:

Truly in the body there is a morsel of flesh, which, if it is sound, all the body is sound, and which, if it is corrupt, all of the body is corrupt. Truly, it is the heart.
(Sahih Al-Bukhari and Sahih Muslim)

The soundness of the heart can be achieved by loving Allah more than anything else and ta'dheem of Allah's commands and prohibitions. Ta'dheem means to have respect on what Allah has commanded us to do and stay away from the prohibited. Hence, it is important to know the condition of our hearts from time to time. I know things are easier said than done but the rewards are just amazing. Subhanallah. One of the beauties of the Qur'an is it can make a sad person happy. No matter how guilty we feel over the sins that we have done, Allah always persuades us and calms our hearts with His words of love (the Qur'an). Don't you think Allah is amazing? Subhanallah. 

Surah Fussilat verse 30 to 32, briefly, Allah Taala says that don't be sad because of the sins that we have committed in the past. Instead, remain steadfast in our ibadah because He has promised Jannah for those who have remained on the straight path. These verses can also give us spiritual motivation to keep doing better despite the difficulty of istiqamah. When this part of the lecture was presented, I could feel my heart crying over the greatness of Allah. Subhanallah. Allah is just amazing.

To relate this with what has happened in my life.
I've deleted my twitter account a couple of days ago. Somehow I feel happy that it has finally gone. I decided to do so because of several reasons. I want to make myself a better person. I want to change my life. You can say whatever you want, but it's still His opinions that are matter to me. To be honest, I just feel like I wasn't being completely myself on twitter and almost everything I tweeted lately was bothering me. Yes, each and one of us does things to impress others. I didn't like the feeling I felt during that time. But anyhow, at the end of the day, I'm glad I have made such decision.

Another thing that I would like to clarify is I'm trying to take care of my ikhtilat. An advice for the men out there, a good man respects women and lowers his gaze. What I meant by lowering the gaze was by trying to control oneself from having unimportant conversations. This is to avoid zina. May Allah give us the understanding of His deen. I would also like to take this opportunity to ask for your forgiveness for all the things that I have done wrong, intentionally or unintentionally. May Allah forgive us all and keep us steadfast on the righteous path.

Until then, good night.

Wednesday, November 19, 2014


Hello, November!
I can't believe that we've left October weeks ago.
And I can't even believe that I've just finished my last paper today. 


It was the toughest weeks ever in my life. 
I think I've done the best that I could in this exam and it's time to put my tawakal in Allah. 

I've been doing a lot of reflecting and reminiscing lately. I couldn't have done this without His help. Almost three years living in a foreign country, with foreign house mates, and speaking in a foreign language. My God. When I think back, how on earth did I manage to survive in Australia this long? Yet I'm thankful for this opportunity. To experience a different culture, meeting wonderful people and travel to amazing places, these are the golden experiences that I will forever treasure in my life. Masha'Allah. It has always been my dream to study abroad, and with Allah's permission, He granted my prayer. Alhamdulillah.

One thing that I would like to share is never underestimate the power of istikharah. From this journey, I've learned to always seek Allah's help whenever we have to make a decision in life. How easy it is and how amazing Allah is that even just by praying two raka'ah can give such tremendous impacts in one's life. Subhanallah. Before I came to Brisbane, I was offered by another two universities where one was located in Melbourne and another one in Perth. I know. It was so tight. I didn't know which one to choose because all of them were equally good. And the first thing that came into my mind was istikharah. Finally, I chose Brisbane. Every decision that you make in which you involve Allah in it, such decision will never be a regretted one. I'm reminding myself and those who are reading this.


Now I can't wait to do istikharah for another one of the biggest decisions in my life. 
Guess what? Marriage. Haha.