Monday, April 14, 2014

My status

I've been questioned a lot about my status lately.

My answer is simple. I'm nobody's until the day I become a wife to a wonderful husband. I'm still holding on to what I've hold on to before. That is, I don't want to be in a relationship unless if it's halal. I have done a lot of mistakes in my past and still do it everyday which is why I'm struggling to improve myself to become a better person.

I want to do everything in a halal way.
I want everything I do is blessed by Allah.
I want the best for my future husband and children.

I know that this is not easy. Especially with what is happening around me. But I know that Allah will always be with me. I don't know with whom I'll be spending the rest of my life with but I know that if I keep on striving to become a better Muslimah, then Allah will grant me a pious spouse. I was listening to a lecture by AbdelRahman Murphy this morning and found it to be soothing.

If we want to have a wife like Aisya RA, then maybe we should start being like Muhammad SAW.  AbdelRahman Murphy 

May Allah bless brother AbdelRahman Murphy and his family.
Marriage is something that every woman wants to experience in their life. Maybe Allah knows that I'm not ready yet so He delays it. Maybe He wants me to change myself first so that when the time has come, I can be a good wife to a good husband and a good mother to my children. Insha'Allah. Until the day I become a wife to someone, then I will love him for the sake of Allah with all my heart.

Living in Australia has opened my eyes widely to see how beautiful marriage can be is if the spouses do it in accordance with Islam. I've learned a lot here and everyday my love towards the deen grows fonder. I pray that may Allah grant every single brother and sister who is reading this a pious spouse which can lead them to Jannah someday.


Thursday, April 3, 2014

Bangkok, Thailand.

I went to Thailand last December.
I know it was four months ago but it's better late than never.

I told you I'm more determined to blog this time.

Now, where do I begin.
My family and I went to Bangkok during their demonstration days which was a crazy idea. I know! Grandma was so worried that she wished the plan was cancelled. But alhamdulillah everything was okay. We arrived home safely.

I know I've never mentioned about my shopping addiction before but my idea of the trip was all about shopping. Unfortunately, everything we found was expensive until our last in Thailand. On our last day, dad brought us to a shopping mall where everything they sell is cheap! However, we spent only few hours to shop and it was not enough for a person who loves to shop like me. I'm not sure if this is a part of dad's plan though. Hurm.

We also went to Madame Tussauds which was one of the best experiences ever! We spent hours taking photos with celebrities. I know I make it sounds like I met them in person but no. I wish they were real but the celebrities I meant were only sculptures. Oh well.

Anyway, I've found Bangkok interesting and I had a great time there. I've tried to capture as many photos as I could but it wasn't that good. It was a mistake to leave my Canon at home. The idea was to test capturing photos with my sister's Nikon. I guess Nikon and I still need to struggle to find that connection between us!

Now I let the photos do the talking.

Have a wonderful day!

Wednesday, April 2, 2014

About love and being a woman

The Richmond Bridge, Tasmania

Beautiful, don't you think?
Well, I think this bridge is romantic.

The Richmond Bridge is the oldest bridge in Australia. I immediately fell in love with it when I saw this photo. Whenever I see this kind of photo, I cannot skip myself from wondering if it's possible to experience walking on a bridge like this with my loved one someday? I wonder who will that man be.

To be loved by a person you love is a blessing.
But to marry someone you love is a greater blessing!

Lately I can say that almost every time my mind wanders, this thought will come through. It is a blessing to me if one could spend the rest of his life with the woman he loves. If this could happen to me, I'm sure the feeling would be wonderful. Being a 22-year-old woman can be quite challenging at times. Some of my friends are married and having children while some are busy planning for their big day! When I was a kid, I've always wanted to be an adult but I've never imagined that it could be this tough. The problem with growing up is we've always wondered how does it feel like to be older than we are now. We want to live in the future so much that we forgot to appreciate the present. A good lesson to teach my kids someday.

Talking about love, for now I'd just leave it in His hands. Although at times, I admit that the feeling of wanting to be loved sometimes appears in me. I know I have mentioned many times about how happy I am seeing my loved one happy but deep inside it is more than the words uttered. I want him to be happy, but I want him to be happy with me. I want to be the one who makes him smile and happy. But I'm only human and Allah knows better. All I can do is pray. I hope that these puzzles will finally make sense someday.

Hence, I leave this to Allah Al-Jabbar (The Restorer), the One who mends the broken and completes the incomplete.

Tuesday, April 1, 2014

Another new year

Well, hello there!
I wonder how long I've been neglecting this blog. It feels like forever.

To be honest, I regret deleting my oldest entries. If I could turn back time, I'd try to pull myself together and think before act. But people make mistakes, I make mistakes. All I can do is to take it as a lesson. One good thing I've learned about blogging is whenever I look back at my previous entries, it always reminds me of the good days I had few years ago. It's like a treasure of memories.

Another year has passed by, even myself cannot believe that I'm in my third year now. How fast time flies! Every time I think about it, I feel sad because I didn't blog much about my life in Australia. But I need to keep reminding myself that it's okay, people do make mistakes and that's a part of life. So now, I've set myself a rule to blog atleast twice a month whenever I have time to kill. I'm more keen and determined to blog about life. And someday I'd like to blog about my life as a wife and mom too. Insha'Allah. I would like to read it again someday when the time comes that I have to walk with a stick. Oh let me rephrase it, I would like to read it again someday with the love of my life when both of us have to walk with a stick and wear dentures!

I hate it when I'm so into putting my thoughts into words and suddenly the clock reminds me of the time that I have left.

Have a wonderful day!