Friday, October 14, 2011

From the heart

I wrote this while listening to Adele’s “Hiding My Heart”. I’m not quite sure what I feel right now. All I know is something is bothering me. I think it’s time for me to come clean. It’s almost a year now and the memories keep haunting me. It makes me realize how hurtful love can be.

“…I can’t spend my whole life hiding my heart away”,

I wish I could let go of this feeling and bury the memories. I wish our love could have remained as effortless and as simple as that. I wish it would have been easy for us. It wasn't. It’s not easy for me up until today and I wish I could tell you this. But I’m not that strong anymore to face you. As my heart couldn’t take it, listening to your voice and reading your messages, my heart just couldn’t take it anymore. I wrote this merely to express what I feel. Though I know you won’t be reading this. I’m still trying to move on. Still. I take it you’re happy now with your life. I wish I could be happy with my life too just like you. And though, I am no longer the reason behind your smile, I still wish I am. But it’s fine for me. Seeing you smile is enough for me now. Knowing you happy makes me happy too. I hope you’re doing fine there and remember me always.

So, I guess time will heal everything. I just have to keep moving. I think that’s enough, of hiding my heart away. And let it open again but only this time, this time I want it to be safe and protected. I’ll wait for the right person. In a meantime, I’ll pray to Allah earnestly that someday when He feel that the time has come and send me someone, I want that someone to be the best for me. InshaAllah.


  1. kak ieka seperti fahami ape yang fatin sedang alami sekarang ini :)

    keep move on kak ;)

  2. hehe you too fatin :) God has a better plan ahead for us. Be strong girl !