Somewhere far away

“...it feels like you want to travel away from where you belong; somewhere where nobody knows who you are. A place somewhere that no one knows.”

I’ve decided to be away from every social network I have and stick with my blog since this is the only place where I feel safe enough to express my feeling. Everything about my personal life has turned into something complicated now. I don’t want to make it even more complicated by posting it randomly. Hence, I’ve decided to let the feeling go here, in this blog. There are a few things that my head can’t stop questioning and I can’t sleep thinking about it. Even worse, I cry myself to sleep.

Let me take a deep breath.

This ugly feeling, it feels like you want to travel away from where you belong; somewhere where nobody knows who you are. A place somewhere that no one knows. It’s too hard to express it by words. It’s just too hard. I’ve packed it all in my head but I couldn’t express it any better. Forgive me, dear heart. I have to burden you with all these. I know this is a test. Deep down inside I don’t want to feel this way. But I’m only human. Sometimes I keep too much, and I end up crying all night long. It’s like heavy clouds in the sky, are best relieved by the letting of a little water.

Whenever I cry, I tell myself; “this is life, Ieka. We can’t always have the sun shining every day. You can’t have a rainbow without a little rain. Someday you’ll taste the feeling of happiness again. Allah has a better plan for you. Stop crying and be thankful to Him.”

Patience

“...And the most important thing I’ve learned is to never hurt your parents feelings because in life we need the blessings of our parents in everything we do...”

Well, it's been a very long time now. I didn't write much these days. After all, I really miss the feeling of expressing every thought that I have in mind. For some people, they might think that writing is easy, but for me it isn’t. I must say that I miss all the fun that I had here in this blog. I love to write. First and foremost, forgive me for any of my grammatical errors in this post. Life for me, as for now, not much of an adventure. I’ve been spending half of the year doing nothing. I miss studying. I miss all the chaotic life I had as a student. I tend to be a little bit jealous looking at those who’d finished their first semester. I’ve been waiting for the offer letter almost six months now. And I have to admit that I had almost given up. To be honest, I didn’t get accepted to enter my dream university. I was rejected. I should’ve known it better, but I was putting too much hope instead of putting too much effort. Six months of a very painful waiting, I began to realize that this isn’t just about a-painful-waiting. I’ve learned a lot; I’ve learned to be more patient. I’ve learned to rely on Allah. I’ve learned that in order to achieve what I want; I have to put in extra effort. I’ve learned to accept the fact that sometimes we cannot always have what we want no matter how much we’ve tried. Sometimes, things happen for a reason and if Allah wills it, it will happen. I’ve also learned a valuable lesson from my own mistake, do not delay things that you’ve intended to do. And the most important thing I’ve learned is to never hurt your parents feelings because in life we need the blessings of our parents in everything we do. Please, take whatever I've shared here as lessons of a lifetime. I believe that Allah has a better plan for me. Maybe even better than what I have in mind, even greater than my plan. Maybe someday I will fulfill my dream, but not now. Whatever the reason is, Allah knows what’s best for me. For now, yes, I am still trying, but this time, I leave everything in Allah’s hands. Again, if Allah wills it, it will happen. I pray for the best. Amin.

Nature

“My greatest pleasure was the enjoyment of a serene sky amidst these verdant woods: yet I loved all the changes of Nature; and rain, and storm, and the beautiful clouds of heaven brought their delights with them.”

— Mary Wollstonecraft Shelley

From the heart

I wrote this while listening to Adele’s “Hiding My Heart”. I’m not quite sure what I feel right now. All I know is something is bothering me. I think it’s time for me to come clean. It’s almost a year now and the memories keep haunting me. It makes me realize how hurtful love can be.

“…I can’t spend my whole life hiding my heart away”,

I wish I could let go of this feeling and bury the memories. I wish our love could have remained as effortless and as simple as that. I wish it would have been easy for us. It wasn't. It’s not easy for me up until today and I wish I could tell you this. But I’m not that strong anymore to face you. As my heart couldn’t take it, listening to your voice and reading your messages, my heart just couldn’t take it anymore. I wrote this merely to express what I feel. Though I know you won’t be reading this. I’m still trying to move on. Still. I take it you’re happy now with your life. I wish I could be happy with my life too just like you. And though, I am no longer the reason behind your smile, I still wish I am. But it’s fine for me. Seeing you smile is enough for me now. Knowing you happy makes me happy too. I hope you’re doing fine there and remember me always.

So, I guess time will heal everything. I just have to keep moving. I think that’s enough, of hiding my heart away. And let it open again but only this time, this time I want it to be safe and protected. I’ll wait for the right person. In a meantime, I’ll pray to Allah earnestly that someday when He feel that the time has come and send me someone, I want that someone to be the best for me. InshaAllah.

A simple note about love

Love can hurt us so bad…but at the same time it can heal us too. Love can drive us mad. It can drive us crazy. But one thing for sure, if we truly love someone with sincerity, no matter how bad they’ve treated us, we’ll never get tired of listening to “I’m sorry” or “it won’t happen again, I promise” repeatedly. Love is a human nature.

However, in my case, I guess I’m not trying to resist love. I just don’t want to be hurt anymore. For now, I think chasing His love is the most vital thing to do. Because I believe that in the end, I’ll meet someone who will fight for me and who is worth fighting for. It is only the matter of time. Everyone has their own dream guy and I have my own too. But in order for me to meet my dream guy, I have to improve myself and change the bad side of me first. I am not perfect, indeed I’m not. I did a load of mistakes in my past and slowly it taught me a new lesson in life each day.

I will always believe that true love exists. Though, I’ve been hurt so many times but I think it’s fair enough because I hurt others too. I’m sorry. It was never my intention to hurt anyone. Sometimes things can be so hard to explain. And sometimes the most important part is the hardest thing to tell. If I say that living the single life is fun, that’s the biggest lie ever. It drags you into emptiness. Your heart feels cold and at some point you forgot what it feels like to love someone. Yet, I believe everything happens for a reason. I am slowly drowning in the sea of His love. He loves us unconditionally, and I want to love Him unconditionally too. By loving Him with all my heart, I’ve found peace.

At certain times in life, things don’t work out exactly like what we want. The future is unpredictable. We can’t have a rainbow without a little rain, remember? Have faith in Him. Believe that He is the best planner of all and his plans are always the best.

Smile

“Smile is the best medicine.
A smile is a curve that sets everything straight.”

So keep on smiling :)

Lavender

“I'd rather have roses on my table than diamonds on my neck.”

— Emma Goldman

It's 6.54 pm. The sun had finally moved toward the western sky. I've spent my whole day at home today. The past few days were the most tiring day for me. I've been thinking to start on a few projects since I have nothing to do at home. In a meantime, while waiting for the offer letter to arrive, I can value my free time with something profitable.

Anyway, I'm a fan of roses and I love butterflies. I've noticed that lately I began to love the lavender. I like it because of its colour. Don't you think it's pretty? The purplish-grey colour. To me it's beautiful. So beautiful. I love flowers. I really do. A flower to me is a symbol of a woman. It's a metaphor. The beautiful one, which I love to equate it with roses, have thorns to protect themselves from being touched. 'Beautiful' not only from the outside but as well as from the inside. A beautiful woman won't easily let herself being touched by a man. As far as I can see from my dictionary of life, that is one of the reasons why I love roses.

My camera lens

These days, I rarely post or upload pictures in my blog and Facebook. I accidentally broke my camera lens. It saddens me to think about it because I would usually fill in my free time with photographing here and there. I haven't told my parents about it and I feel sick to my stomach. I'm worried about how my dad will react when he finds out about this.

A couple of weeks ago, I went out with my family. My little brother just bought a new camera, Lomo Instax Instant Mini. Phew, I don't even know how to shorten the name ! Anyway, so he went to Pixel to buy the instant film. It's a store selling cameras and so forth. So I was thinking that maybe I could go and check out how much the lens will cost. I started searching as soon as I entered the store and stopped when I saw Canon. Unfortunately, I could do nothing but stared at the price. I remembered a few days back, I was studying the lens because I was so curious thinking how did it happen? And I said to myself, never mind, it already happened I'll buy myself a new lens. I thought I could get it for maybe RM 600 or less. Back to where I was, I stared at the lenses, the cheapest one cost for RM 1000. A few steps away, two figures were standing at the counter. My dad and my little brother were about to finish and a few seconds later they went out.

So that is how the story goes.

Now, I can do nothing but zip my mouth waiting for the right time to tell my dad about it. Oh well, I hope I have the courage to tell him now. In a meantime, I can only use my webcam or blackberry to take pictures. Sigh.

Hello October

October has finally arrived ! I'm going to miss September 2011. I know things won't be the same again for the next September. I guess that's the beauty of life. Anyway, I pray to Allah to bring more happiness in my life and to bring back the colour into my life. Amin :')

I'd rather be with you

One of my favourite songs :)


To those who followed me on Twitter, this might sound familiar to you :P
Dear future husband, will you sing this song for me someday?
:')





Sittin’ here on this lonely dock
Watch the rain play on the ocean top
All the things I feel I need to say
I can’t explain in any other way

I need to be bold
Need to jump in the cold water
Need to grow older with a girl like you
Finally see you were naturally
The one to make it so easy when you showed me the truth
Yeah, yeah I’d rather be with you
Say you want the same thing too

Now here’s the sun come to dry the rain
Warm my shoulders and relieve my pain
You’re the one thing that I’m missing here
With you beside me I no longer fear

I need to be bold
Need to jump in the cold water
Need to grow older with a girl like you
Finally see you were naturally
The one to make it so easy when you showed me the truth
Yeah, yeah I’d rather be with you
Say you want the same thing too

I could have saved so much time for us
Had I seen the way to get to where I am today
You waited on me for so long
So now listen to me say

I need to be bold
Need to jump in the cold water
Need to grow older with a girl like you
Finally see you were naturally
The one to make it so easy when you showed me the truth
Yeah, yeah I’d rather be with you
Say you want the same thing too

Say you feel the way I do

With love

“Sometimes you have to be apart from people you love, but that doesn't make you love them any less. Sometimes you love them more.”

― Nicholas Sparks

Throughout life you will find one person who is unlike any other, brightens your day with his or her smile and sing you a lullaby at night. Who is unlike any other, treats you like a queen. Who will always be there for you when you're down, hold you tight and say it's okay, everything will be all right, I'm here for you, by your side.

I've learned that when it comes to love; sincerity, trust, loyalty, honesty, understanding, and commitment are the most important things that you must have. Somehow, love has taught me the meaning of maturity; to decide things, to think positive, to be optimist. With love, you'll learn to appreciate your loved one. With love, you'll learn to accept his or her imperfections. With love, you'll learn mostly about sincerity, trust, loyalty, honesty, understanding, and commitment. Love is such a wonderful feeling. The reason for you to smile everyday. Yet sometimes love can hurt ourselves too. That could be a sign. No matter how much you love someone, remember to love Him and His Messenger completely first. Because the one who gave you that feeling, is Him. Love that person because of Him.

The moment when you've finally found someone who accepts your imperfections, loves you for who you are, who changes your world to a better one and always be there for you at your weakest, don't let him or her go. Love is not always perfect. But by loving his or her imperfections, everything will be perfect. So if you've found one, appreciate them. Love them with all your heart. Cause they're the one who is worth keeping and worth for you to fight for. Think of how it would be if you've never met the one who changes everything.

Dreams

“People think dreams aren’t real just because they aren’t made of matter, of particles. Dreams are real. But they are made of viewpoints, of images, of memories and puns and lost hopes.”

— Neil Gaiman

Do you have dreams which you've been keeping for so long? Anything. Dreams about love, future, anything. Do you have one? Wonderful isn't it? How it encourages us to strive. To get what we want. What we really, really want. Yes, I admit it's hard to achieve our dreams. But trust me, with efforts, faith, hopes and prayer, He'll make it easy for us. InshaAllah. You know what is the best thing about dream? What makes it so special? It's all about looking back to at how far you've come from the obstacles, barriers, tribulations and the risks that you have to face. To look at yourself, how stronger you've become from time to time. To appreciate your abilities, to appreciate you, yourself.

I have dreams. My dream is to become a successful daughter so that I can give back to my parents and to help poor people. I want to travel the world. I want to learn new cultures. I want to explore the world. I want to see His creations so that I will always continuously be thankful and never stop saying thank you to Him for everything that He gave. My dream is to become a good wife and a mother, to have a house with a garden filled with flowers and butterflies, a beautifully decorated home with roses wallpapers and wonderful family. InshaAllah. Amin ya Allah.

It's not wrong to keep and have dreams. Because in the end all that matters is you. It's your life. Your choice. It's up to you. Everything is in your hand. Have faith. Believe in your dreams. Put some effort. Keep on praying, praying and praying. If Allah wills it, it will happen.

Travel the world

The man you see in the picture above, that man is the one who inspires me throughout my life. The man who lifts me up when I feel down. Who teaches me the meaning of life. The man who will never leave his children behind. The man who always, I repeat, always loves us with all his heart. His face is always calm. His words are always in the form of advices. That man, my friends, is my dad. My inspiration. I hope I can shout to the world how lucky I am to be your daughter. How lucky I am to have a wonderful dad like you. Thank you, Allah. Thank you.

I always have this dream; to travel the world someday. To learn other cultures. To live independently but most of all to see His creations. Seeing him travelling the world and learning new cultures inspires me a lot. I want to be like him. I want to travel the world like him. I want to give back to my parents like what he did to his parents too. He teaches us the meaning of hardship. And what it feels like to get good results from your hard work. His parents were poor. And he told us how hard things back then for him to live his life in university. The most he could get was RM 50, given by his uncle. A pocket money for a month. He works so hard to change everything for his family.



I love you, daddy.
I have the best dad in the world ! We, siblings, we have the best dad in the world. Who understands us a lot, who will always be there for us through thick and thin, who believes and supports our dreams and never get tired of listening to our stories, to share our thoughts. And I thank Allah for everything. Alhamdulillah. Thank you, Allah. Again, thank you.

Someday, I will travel the world just like him. InshaAllah.

A simple note

Keep on smiling sweethearts :)

Dear September

In just a blink of an eye, we are now in the beginning of September. Happy September everyone. I pray that this month will be a better month for me. Hoping that this month will be better than last month and a few months ago. Hoping that Allah will bring more joy and happiness in my life. Amin. I know I've been away from blogging for quite a while. Unmotivated, that's the word that can describe everything. So, here me again, trying to motivate myself. There is something that I would love to express here. To know that every single thing that I shared here has helped you to go through the pain in your life means a lot to me. Indeed. Please don't get me wrong. Forgive me if what I'm trying to say sound like I'm making myself proud. No. In fact, indeed I'm happy. I'm happy that I can be that person who keeps you motivated when you're down. Alhamdulillah. Thank you for all the beautiful words I get when I was unmotivated :')

Like everyone else, I have my own September wish. Wishes, I mean. But let's just keep it between me and Him. It's been a very hard journey for me. Deep inside my heart, I really hope that all the wishes will come true. Amin ya Allah. Yet I believe everything happens for a reason. Keep reminding myself that Allah is the best planner and his plans are always the best, inshaAllah. Sometimes, not everything can be described by words. And sometimes not all words can describe the situation. So I chose to remain silent because for me I find it hard to describe everything. But I know that I must have faith in Allah. With prayer, inshaAllah, everything will be easy.

By the way, I hope it's not too late for me to wish everyone a Happy Eid Mubarak !
I'm sorry for any wrong doings. May Allah bless you. Amin :')

Wishes for you

Be my imam for my prayers. Be my qari and read the quran for me.
Be the one who leads me to Allah :')

When I feel sad

When I feel sad, besides praying to Allah, I'll listen to this song.
Listen to this song, it's beautiful indeed ! Subhanallah :')

Look at what I've found

The old photos of mine ! I went through all the folders and I've found these. Okay, a little bit excited I guess. If I'm not mistaken, I took these pictures when I was 15 year-old. By that time I was in Form 3. I can't believe that I still have it in my laptop ! There are many more but let's just keep it private. I'm sure you don't want to see the rest of it. Oh, I have so many memories back then :')

Women's favourite

Kadang-kadang benda kecil pun boleh buat kita excited bukan?
Oh, I love my new sling bag ! :")

Thank you

When you look at this picture, what really comes into your mind? I feel compassion, love and loyalty. A "stormy" love. It makes me calm. You know what is more beautiful? When we realize that our patience all this time are worthwhile. Alhamdulillah.


"I know there will be a day I fall in love with someone. But don't let me forget you."
- Anis Ashaari

Allah, don't let me forget You. I need You forever in my life. The best thing in my life is to think about You, to love You, to have You and to share my pain and my happiness with You. Everything. The best thing in my life is everything about You. Thank you, Allah. Thank you :')

Inspiration

Well, I know I've introduced her long time ago. In my old entries which I've deleted few months ago. Anyway, I admire her for quite a long time. She inspires me a lot. Especially when it comes to study. She's my sister, my cousin to be precise. But I'd love to call her my sister because to us we are all siblings. A one big family. I'm grateful that I have her as my idol. She's now in Russia pursuing studies in Medicine. We've made a promise...well, let's just keep it private. Anyhow, I hope that the promise can be fulfilled.

Keep your heart open to dreams,
for as long as there is a dream,
there is hope.

Have you ever dream of something that you desire a lot in your life? I have a dream which I kept to myself for years. And still keeping it until I achieve it. I respect those who have thousands of dreams. Because the feeling is so amazing. It drives you to do whatever it takes to achieve it. I finally get it right now. For years I've been dreaming to achieve it, obstacles came along. So I took some time to look back, I believe that it has something to do with your real intention. If that's what you want, that's what you get. Well, in my case, I guess I have to understand the extent of my ability. We don't have to burden ourselves to get what we want. Sometimes we will get it but in different situation. Different than what we've plan.

You know, if you always get what you want, you're lucky. If things doesn't always come in your way, you're lucky too that Allah allows you to achieve what you want according to His plans. La tahzan, remember that His plan is the best for us. Besides, what life's going to be without a little bit of adventure? Be thankful. Always believe that the sky is the limit for us.

Hati dan perasaan

Bila bercakap tentang cinta dan kasih sayang, saya bukanlah arif sangat. Tapi yang saya tahu cinta tu anugerah Allah yang paling indah. Tadi saya dan saudara yang lain keluar luangkan masa bersama. As usual, tempat lepak terbaru kami Kopitiam. Perbualan yang agak panjang. Mostly mengenai arwah abang. Arwah abang adalah inspirasi saya bila bercakap mengenai cinta. Tiada manusia yang sempurna di muka bumi Allah ini. Tapi di mata saya, dia sangat sempurna. Setahu saya arwah abang tidak pernah sakiti hati mana-mana wanita yang dia kenali. Arwah abang tidak pernah mahu berkata 'tidak'. Sentiasa berpandangan jauh. MashaAllah. Saya tahu kebanyakkan wanita di luar sana impikan seorang kekasih yang baik dan soleh. Begitu juga sebaliknya untuk kaum lelaki. Dan bagi saya, itu tidak mustahil sama sekali.

Untukmu lelaki, kalau engkau mengaku susah untuk mencari wanita solehah janganlah engkau mencari di mana dia tetapi berusahalah untuk mengubah diri agar menjadi seorang lelaki yang baik. Kerana janji Allah itu pasti, wanita yang baik adalah untuk lelaki yang baik. Begitu juga untukmu wanita :)

Arwah abang mengajar saya bahawa kedua-dua cinta dan kasih sayang tu adalah sesuatu yang luhur. Perasaan itu sesuatu yang luar biasa. Dan saya percaya bila kita mencintai seseorang itu dengan ikhlas dan penuh kasih sayang, perasaan itu akan terus kekal biarpun pasangan hidup kita bukanlah dia. Tanyalah mana-mana lelaki, walaupun banyak helah mereka tapi percayalah bila ditanya soal hati mereka akan tetap setia pada yang satu. Tanyalah mana-mana lelaki, kalau cinta tu cinta sejati, 20 tahun dari sekarang mereka akan masih teringatkan cinta sejati mereka. Kalau ianya kuat, mereka akan cari sehinggalah bisa bertemu semula. Saya mulai faham dan minda terbuka bila berfikir tentang segala kesilapan saya dalam hubungan dahulu. Tapi, saya juga manusia yang tidak lari daripada melakukan kesilapan. Kadang kala hubungan percintaan tu mengajar kita lebih mendalam tentang perasaan dan persefahaman antara satu sama lain. Dan saya setuju, hubungan percintaan tu mengajar perasaan, fikiran dan tingkah laku kita tentang erti kematangan. Yang paling penting, dalam mana-mana percintaan pun, pastikan cinta kita terhadap manusia tu tidak melebihi cinta kita kepada Allah dan Muhammad saw.

A step away from dream

Alhamdulillah, the result has been released about a week ago, 22nd June 2011. I was so scared and I didn't check it on that day. Why? Hurm. I thought I couldn't make it. My instinct told me that I'm going to fail one of the subject. So instead of checking my result on that day, I check it on Friday. I couldn't express how happy I am up until today. And how thankful I am to Allah. It's true, if you believe in Allah and you put faith in Him, He will listen to you. To your prayers. Thank you, Allah. Thank you. I realised that I couldn't make it without prayers no matter how much effort I've put on. Have faith in Allah, my dear brothers and sisters. Have faith. Alhamdulillah, I passed all the subjects. Thought I have to take another semester. What happened was an eye-opener for me. Sometimes we don't always get what we want, whatever we have now, be thankful to Allah cause there's always a reason beneath it all.

I know I've been away for so long. Maybe I just couldn't live without writing. It's my passion and no matter how much I've tried to be away from it, I will always miss it. Blog is where I express my feelings and thoughts. Where I can meet fantasy, although I've been living in reality my entire life. I'm not sharing, I'm expressing. Maybe that's why I always love to write. And I hope I will never quit from writing, no matter what. I hope you will enjoy reading.

Life's good so far. Well, sometimes I feel lonely too. It's almost a year now. Living a single life is hard too. I never thought it could be this tough. I agree, two is better than one. But I still believe in true love. And will always wait for that day to come. Maybe it's not now. Sometimes I ask myself, am I still holding on the past? Up until now, I don't have the answer.

As for my studies, I am now applying universities in New Zealand and Australia. I hope I can make it. Of course I don't want to burden my parents to achieve what I want, so I'm going to apply for scholarship soon. And again I hope they will choose me. A step away from my dream. Allah has shown me His greatness, I couldn't believe it till now. Subhanallah. InshaAllah, have faith in Allah. Have faith.

In a nutshell,
whatever the mind can conceive and believe, the mind can achieve. So if you think you can, you can. Lastly, prays always prays and when you pray put a hundred percent faith in Allah. Put your own effort to your studies. Believe in Allah. Always.

What she chooses to show

“Don’t be so quick to judge, you only see what she chooses to show.”

It is better to give

A young man, a student in one of the universities, was one day taking a walk with his Professor. The professor was commonly called the ‘student’s friend’, from his kindness to those who waited on his instructions.

As they went along, they saw lying in the path a pair of old shoes. They belonged to a poor man who was employed in a field close by, and who had nearly finished his day’s work. The student turned to the professor, saying: “Lets play a trick on this man.” “We will hide his shoes and hide behind those bushes there and see what he does when he cannot find them.”

“My young friend,” answered the professor, “we should never amuse ourselves at the expense of the poor. But you are rich, and may give yourself a much greater pleasure by means of this poor man. Put a coin in each shoe, and then we will hide ourselves and watch how this affects him.”

The student did so & they both hid nearby. The poor man soon finished work & came out of the field to where he had left his coat & shoes.

While putting on his coat he slipped his foot into one of his shoes, but feeling something hard, he stooped down to feel what it was, and found the coin. Astonished and full of wonder he gazed upon the coin, turned it around, and looked at it again and again.

He then looked around him on all sides, but no person was to be seen. He now put the money into his pocket, and proceeded to put on the other shoe; but his surprise was doubled on finding the other coin.

His feelings overcame him; he fell upon his knees, looked up to the heavens and uttered aloud a fervent thanksgiving in which he spoke of his wife who was sick and helpless, and his children without bread, whom this timely bounty, from some unknown hand,would save from perishing.

The student stood there deeply affected, and his eyes filled with tears. “Now,” said the professor, are you not much better pleased than if you had played your intended trick?”

The youth replied, “You have taught me a lesson which I will never forget. I feel now the truth of these words, which I never understood before: “It’s more blessed to give than to receive.”

Abdullah bin Abbas (RA) reported that the Prophet (SAW) said that encouraging good, prohibiting evil, lifting the burden of the weak person and removing an offensive thing from a path are all acceptable prayers to Allah. - Ibn Majah

The Value of Women's Beauty in Islam

So when this woman, before leaves the house, like the other woman, she looks in the mirror.

But they're looking in the mirror for something different.

When the woman in the street looks in the mirror, she makes sure she has the best style.

She looks good, she can attract the men! But this woman, when she looks in the mirror,

she makes sure she's dressed appropriately, makes sure that Allah is pleased with her,

makes sure she's covered, so when she goes out in the street and she's covered,

to please ALLAH and she does that...

she's beautiful.

Selamat Hari Ibu dan Ayah

Entri khas yang ditujukan buat kedua orang tua ku tercinta. Jauh di sudut hati, ingin ku balas satu persatu jasamu, ayah dan ibu. Setiap hari adalah hari ibu, begitu juga ayah. Dan hadiah yang mampu ku berikan hanyalah doa. Doa dari seorang anak yang dahagakan rahmat dan restu dari Ilahi. Dan tidak lain tidak bukan. Sudah tentu...hadiah sebuah kejayaan. Perjuangan anakmu ini belum selesai. Selagi Allah mengizinkan aku untuk bernafas di bumi ini, tanggungjawab ku sebagai seorang anak tidak akan pernah selesai. Akan ku hadiahi kalian berdua segulung sijil suatu hari nanti. Dengan izin-NYA. Sebagai tanda kesyukuran atas segala usaha yang kalian berikan selama ini akhirnya membuahkan hasil. Meskipun mungkin ianya mengambil masa yang lama untukku. Hati ini tersentuh bila memikirkan kau menghabiskan keringatmu siang dan malam untuk menghasilkan mujahid dan mujahidah yang berjaya di dunia dan akhirat. InsyaAllah. Kerana Allah, akan ku teruskan perjuangan yang belum selesai ini. Selamat Hari Ibu dan Ayah :')

It's been a long time

Absence makes the heart grow fonder

I was watching the video that I took during our trip to Kuala Lumpur last year. What more can I say...I miss my best friends so much :')

Dinner at Murni

We went to Murni again! We had lots of fun. Can't stop laughing and seriously it was fun. Unfortunately, Era couldn't come. Never mind, we'll do this again next time :) Oh and we had a bowling tournament last Friday. I brought my camera but I forgot to charge it. How I wish I can share it here. Oh well. Never mind.

Peringatan Kecil

Allah Maha Pengasih lagi Maha Penyayang. Buktinya, Dia memudahkan kita untuk mendapatkan pahala dengan menciptakan tangan, kaki, mulut, lidah dan hati agar kita dapat menunaikan kewajipan kita sebagai seorang muslim. Tapi kita lalai. Jatuh tersungkur hanyut di lautan dunia yang deras. Lalu Allah tarik satu persatu nikmat yang telah diberikan oleh-Nya. Renung-renungkanlah. Ingat, dunia ini hanyalah satu persinggahan agar kita dapat mencari bekalan dan membawa bekalan tersebut ke akhirat kelak. Dan ingat, akhirnya hanya akan ada dua tempat yang kekal abadi. Syurga atau Neraka. Jazakallah khair.

Calmness breeds happiness

Happiness is like a butterfly which, when pursued, is always beyond our grasp, but, if you will sit down quietly, may alight upon you.

- Nathaniel Hawthorne

Entrusted Gifts

There was once a very pious and knowledgeable scholar whose son passed away at the tender age of 6. The scholar was deeply affected by his loss. He would go to the masjid for Salah and would return home immediately afterwards, not giving any lectures or evening daras, as he would usually do. Outside of his home he had stopped talking to people who lived in his neighbourhood.


Upon seeing this routine for several weeks, the people of the town were severely concerned. They wished to help the Alim but did not know how to approach him.
A woman who was witnessing all of this came up with a plan, using her wisdom which Allah had blessed her with. She decided to take matters into her own hands and pay the scholar a visit.


Upon reaching his house she asked permission to enter. The Alim’s wife told the woman to wait and went to her husband. Hearing this, the Alim was very disturbed. He told his wife to go back and tell the woman he wished not to speak to her. He told her to ask someone else. The woman was very reluctant in leaving. She continuously pleaded with the Alim that there was no one else who had studied Ilm and that she needed a specific question answering.

The Alim gave in and told the woman to go ahead and ask the question. The woman began speaking. “The question I wanted to ask has to be answered in accordance to Islamic law.”

The Alim nodded and gestured her to carry on. “A friend of mine was given a Amanat (a possession which needed to be kept safe). She had the Amanat for a few years and grown fond of it. On the return to the owner she became upset and didn’t want to give the Amanat back. Should she keep it or return it?”


The Alim answered with ease and told her that the answer was to simply return the item as it did not belong to her friend in the first place. The woman asked again to make sure she had the right answer. “So even though my friend looked after the possession for so long, she still has to return it?”

The Alim repeated the answer again and added, “Your friend should be grateful to the owner that the Amanat had been taken back so its not in her care anymore.” Then the woman spoke. “In the same way Allah had blessed you with a son. But he returned to Allah who was ultimately the owner.”

With saying that the woman left. The Alim thanked Allah for opening his eyes. He raised his hands in Dua. The Scholar then returned to his normal self much to the happiness of all the townspeople.

مِنْهَا خَلَقْنَاكُمْ وَفِيهَا نُعِيدُكُمْ وَمِنْهَا نُخْرِجُكُمْ تَارَةً أُخْرَىٰ

‘From the (earth) did We create you, and into it shall We return you, and from it shall We bring you out once again.’

(Surah Ta’ha 20:55)

Source from Islamic Thinking.

Turning Over a New Leaf

I have deleted my oldest entries and keep the latest. I hope I can write something that all of us can take it as a lesson and learn from it. InsyaAllah.

Jika belum siap cintailah dia dalam diam

Bila belum siap melangkah lebih jauh dengan seseorang,
cukuplah cintai dia dalam diam...

kerana diammu adalah salah satu bukti cintamu padanya…

kau ingin memuliakan dia,
dengan tidak mengajaknya menjalin hubungan yang terlarang,

kau tak mahu merosak kesucian dan penjagaan hatinya itu,
kerana diammu :)

Eyes

Beneath it lies thousands of stories of happiness and sadness
I'm a girl with big dreams
:)

Beauty is in the eye of the beholder

"What you do, the way you think, makes you beautiful."
— Scott Westerfeld

Young and Yes

“Don’t be afraid to be a fool. Remember, you cannot be both young and wise. Young people who pretend to be wise to the ways of the world are mostly just cynics. Cynicism masquerades as wisdom, but it is the farthest thing from it. Because cynics don’t learn anything. Because cynicism is a self-imposed blindness, a rejection of the world because we are afraid it will hurt us or disappoint us. Cynics always say no. But saying yes begins things. Saying yes is how things grow. Saying yes leads to knowledge. “Yes” is for young people. So for as long as you have the strength to, say yes.”

— Stephen Colbert

The Knowledge of Aurat in Islam

In my opinion, this is what the hijabers community in Malaysia ought to do (click the link below to watch the video). Not just fashion, but to spread the knowledge of Islam. There are some who have wrong perceptions about hijab. Some only wears hijab to follow the latest trend. And some reflected hijab in a wrong way. Wearing hijab with leggings. It will only reflect the beauty of Islam in a wrong way. Islam and women. We have been given the conditions in covering the aurat. And there are conditions in ornamenting ourselves too. Among the conditions are not to wear tight clothes, short and not too much. Cover your chest.

Why I love Indonesian people? Watch this clip :) It's wonderful that this community spread the knowledge of aurat in Islam and at the same time keep abreast of current fashion. Subhanallah. May Allah bless this noble work!

Diriwayatkan dari Abdullah bin Amru bin Al-Ash radhiallahu ‘anhuma, dia berkata : Rasulullah Shallallahu ‘alaihi wa sallam berkata, “Makan, minum, bersedekah dan berpakaianlah kalian tanpa berlebih-lebihan dan berbuat kesombongan”.

Indahnya hidup

Kalau diimbas kembali perjalanan hidup selama 19 tahun memang banyak pahit dan manisnya. Hidup di muka bumi sebagai seorang hamba Allah, tidak pernah lari dari melakukan kesilapan. Kadang kala bila ada masa lapang. Duduk di sudut meja. Berfikir sejenak. Betapa indahnya kehidupan. Indahnya takdir. Indahnya Qada' dan Qadar Ilahi. Merungkai satu demi satu perkara seperti mana yang termaktub di dalam Kitabullah. Dan akhirnya muncul satu perkataan dalam sanubari. Subhanallah ! Indahnya Allah swt. Kagum ! Cukup kagum. Rasa rendah diri dan bersyukur kepada Allah. Alhamdulillah. Syukran ya rabbi.

Iman

Bila manusia dalam perbuatan maksiat, imannya ditarik Allah selama dia dalam perbuatan maksiat itu. Namun, bila dia bertaubat, menyesal dan menangis, kemungkinan besar itulah saat imannya berada di kemuncak :)

Subhanallah

The Sheltering Cloud

This is an interesting story to tell. May Allah bless us all. Amin.

People who are involved in religious work sometimes have to point out the faults of others in order to save them from acts of sin. In these instances it is essential to ensure that one does not belittle the person he is advising.

There was once a man from the Banu Israel, whose piety was so great that Allah SWT had instructed a cloud to shelter him at all times. Once whilst this pious person was resting during a journey a person who was renowned for his sins passed by.

Upon seeing the pious person this sinful person thought to himself that let me benefit from the company of this pious servant of Allah. Thus the sinner came and sat right next to the pious man.

The pious person immediately & with great anger got up from his place. For he could not bear the fact that such a great sinner should sit next to him. As he stood up however the pious person noticed to his amazement that the cloud was no longer sheltering him. Rather, it was sheltering the sinner.

In confusion the pious man at once went to the Prophet of that time & requested him to explain what has happened. The Prophet explained: Because the man who came to you came with admiration for your taqwah Allah SWT elevated him to your status and because you looked down upon him Allah SWT degraded you to his status. As a result the cloud was removed from you and given to him.

Look down upon no soul. For you know not what is in their heart.

“And whether you hide your word or publish it, He certainly has full knowledge, of the secrets of all hearts.” (Quran 67:13)

Source from Islamic Thinking.

Dear little sister

A special entry dedicated to a wonderful sister that I've ever had. I've known you for seventeen years three months and two days. And it's been a pleasant journey indeed. Though at certain moments we were in a cat-dog situation. Funny whenever I recall those moments back...it only creates a smile. And now you're going to leave us to achieve your ambition soon. Half of me feel proud. Nevertheless, I feel sad. Soon as I finish my studies and go back home, you're about to leave. Or maybe had left. Sometimes it makes me think, how fast the time goes by that you're about to become a woman. We. About to become a woman. I miss all the fun that we had. The time we'd spent together. The gossip. Tears. Laughter. Not everyone can have the kind of relationship we have. I'm grateful. You're my sister and my best friend. Someday we're going to be a housewife, a mother. I wonder...can we still enjoy the fun like we used to have during childhood? Philippines. I know it's not that far as from here to London nor America. But still it is far from our sight.

But. I believe in you.

I know you can do it. I know. Cause I've put all my trust on you for seventeen years. And you never disappoint me. Dear pilot to be, listen to your heart. Go on and fulfil your dream. Remember. We'll always be sisters.

Dear little sister,
good luck with your studies.

From me, your good friend, your sister.

I wish

Sometimes I wish things can go back the way they were before.

Islam and Women

A British man came to Sheikh and asked: Why is not permissible in Islam for women to shake hands with a man? The Sheikh said: Can you shake hands with Queen Elizabeth? British man said: Of course not, there are only certain people who can shake hands with Queen Elizabeth. Sheikh replied: Our women are queens and queens do not shake hands with strange men.

Face it all with a smile

"In the beginning there is mystery, in the end there is confirmation- but it’s in the middle where all the emotion resides that makes the whole thing worthwhile".

— Nicholas Sparks (The Last Song)

The Value of Friendship

“There is nothing I would not do for those who are really my friends. I have no notion of loving people by halves, it is not my nature.”

— Jane Austen (Northanger Abbey)

I miss you

I miss her and my family back in Sabah :')

Movie Night

Assalamualaikum,
hello readers.

I had fun with my Indonesian friends just now. We went to Sunway Pyramid and watched movie. They are all nice and I love Indonesian people! So we watched No Strings Attached. Thanks to my roommate for the suggestion. But yeah, it was a good movie. All I can say is I hate the first part and love the last part.

Alright. So, I have a new addiction other than a Blackberry. I have my eye on Nikon D7000. Super cool! I wanna own one. Been thinking about changing the lenses for my Canon too. Let's swap the mood shall we? My passion for photography and cameras has arisen once again. Good!

I have nothing else to share. Take care people, good night.
Salam.

A picture is worth a thousand words

Prophet Muhammad's Birthday

Assalamualaikum,
hello readers :)

It's Maulidur Rasul today!
Salam Maulidur Rasul everyone.
Have a nice day alright? Take care ♥